Sometimes being an expat makes you question where is home. You no longer feel completely at home anywhere in the world. It begins to feel like you are always saying goodbye to someone no matter which airport you are leaving. Don’t get me wrong, I love travelling, and I love living and working in different countries. However, once you make this choice, you will never feel as though you belong in one place ever again.
For me, the excitement of a new place starts to wear off after about a year. It’s then that I begin to ask whether or not I should stay and call this place my new home. Usually, I don’t. After one or two years I move on to a new adventure. After 18 months in Sofia, I had this very question running through my mind recently. Where shall I call home?
Of course where I stay will depend on a number of things, friends, work and how happy and safe I feel in that place. In Sofia I am happy, but of course, being the traveller that I am I still found myself asking these questions about the future.
Then something interesting happened. I was packing for a business trip back to the UK. I was frantically pulling clothes out of my wardrobe, as I often do when packing, and a t-shirt fell out from the back of the cupboard. This t-shirt is old, and I had completely forgotten I had it, but when I picked it up and looked at it, the message on the front brought the biggest smile to my face. It said:
You are exactly where you are supposed to be.
Now, as a believer in the powers of the universe and a follower of the ideas surrounding quantum physics and getting what we ask for, this was quite a meaningful moment for me. You may think it’s nothing more than a coincidence that this t-shirt fell out of the cupboard, after all, I was the one who had bought it in the first place. However, for me, it was a sign. I hadn’t seen that t-shirt for more than a year and had forgotten it even existed. Seeing that message in front of me at a time when I was once again questioning where I should be was very powerful!
Needless to say, I am staying where I am for the time being, after all, I was told, I am exactly where I am supposed to be!